This is me & asking the question WHY...over and over. Why wasn't I enough for you to do what you said you were going to do? Why didn't you love me enough? WHY...WHY...WHY...I have to let it go b/c there is no answer. He told me it wasn't that he didn't love me enough, it was the lack of sleep, the depression...whatever. I have to wonder if you ever planned to really get up and do anything at all. Doesn't mean it hurts any less! I just REALLY hope that someday...someday it will not hurt at all b/c I won't CARE anymore so that it hurts. One day at a time...takin it one day at a time! Sometimes it feels like one hour at a time rather than even one DAY at a time!