Today I am thankful that I am SINGLE...just me. Me, me, me...Yesterday a friend said to me "You look SOOOOO much better! You have that spunk back in you. You're getting back to that old Holly. It's good to see". Yes - I feel more like myself again too! I am so happy...I was happy in the beginning & then things got so stressful & just kept going downhill from there. It was my fault in the way things went down and I can't blame anyone for Chad's reactions except for myself. I realize that now, but I had so much anger built up at him for "what he was doing to me, to us". I now realize it was not his fault! He was trying to protect our son from what he saw as a dangerous
There was so much stress & more depressed Brad was getting, the more it was taking a toll on me & stressing me out. He was having a harder time sleeping so he was drinking more. He later told me he got depressed after the whole first job deal fell through & then just went into a depression where he would just wake up & look out the window. He wasn't trying to get a job. It took a real toll on me, took it's toll on Tanner too and everyone around me the amount of stress and tension that was everywhere.
Funny though b/c I really did hold a lot in. When my Mom and I were at the courthouse last week she said there was so much that she didn't know about.
It's a new day...I'm here in MY house enjoying MY life with MY son and OUR pets!